You don’t have the fucking right to judge me. I don’t care what other people think of me because I know who I really am. At wala din akong pakialam kung ano mga sasabihin or sinasabi nila about sakin. As long as I’m happy with what I’m doing. Wala kayong karapatan husgahan ako. Dahil wala naman kayong alam about sakin at sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ko, hindi niyo ako kilala. So please. Don’t judge me. You don’t have the right to. You don’t know what I’ve been through. You don’t know what I’ve felt. Or what I feel right now. So find something better to do with your time. Then judge someone you know nothing about.
You think you know my story. You think you know my pain. You think you know my future. You don’t even know my name. Why do you judge me?
No one has the absolute right to judge us. They might think they do, but they don’t. We may have told them stories or have made confessions from the bottom of our heart but they will never know how it truly feels to be us because there are things that we can’t even confess to ourselves.
Because sometimes people do actually feel that way. Sometimes your life feels like it’s caving in on you. Sometimes people really do feel like they don’t want to exist, like they want to just curl up in a ball, and go into that place between life and death, saying “i don’t want to exist” isn’t saying “i want to go die”. It’s saying “i wish that, for the time being, I could go somewhere and not have to feel“. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that and if you don’t know how it feels to feel this way, then you have no place to judge anyone who does.
‘Cause I realized I can’t always rely on people. I can’t wait for other people to save me. Sometimes I have to save myself.
NOTE TO SELF:
Forget things that stupid people have said and done to you.
Focus on the people who truly love and care for you.
Carry on with what you enjoy doing and do it with
the extra knowledge that you and your heart are good.